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Here I will post some of my best poems in one place for your convenience. I hope you all enjoy them, feel free to leave me some feedback, it would really mean a lot. Thank you for reading. 


Hollow~きょ~
So young and so used,
Don't stop, the world is watching,
They can't look away.
I am a coward,
I've seen things you won't believe,
I wish you would stay.
Try to convince you,
I made peace with who I am,
Deny who I was.
We cover our scars,
We take hits when we are bored,
They make us look good.
Not afraid to die,
Where will we be tomorrow?
Bear a sincere smile.
I taste only sin,
The night is our memory,
No fear of regret.
Smell the stench of death,
Burning in the lust of youth,
Breathing is shallow.
I glamorized suicide,
Brought stories from down under,
And I'm a hero.
~きょ~ © J-Goth/Amanda P.

Dirty~Dirty~
He wanted one taste
Flesh of dry wine summer fruit
Sins of a good man
Dark eyes held their gaze
Expression that made him weak
Beautiful theory
Shockingly returned
Spoiled for the lover he took
At their beck and call
Maybe he believed
It was real for the first time
Walked away again
Start over again
He wanted another taste
Promise addiction
Opened up for him
They carried the guilt for him
For another taste
Dirty © J-Goth/Amanda P.

The First Meeting~The First Meeting~
He was from the Midwest
so his face was pretty common
no one really noticed him
until he went out of his way to be unusual
He was the light to her darkness
he lit her cigarette in a Manhattan bar not long ago
he had to give himself a pep-talk so he could gather
enough courage to say hello
That's when it began to rain
people scrambled to catch cabs
a woman held her purse over her head
another had a man to hold her umbrella
He felt at home with the sound of the rain
as it collaborated with whatever was playing on the jukebox
her voice sang over them both
he wanted to capture that voice like a firefly
He let himself get lost in everything
it felt like they were subjects of observation
or as though they were both fantasies projected through her eyes
to test the limits of the imagination
It began as something just a tad more than casual
nothing hurt as good as they felt in each other's arms
he was the light to her darkness
the first kiss was like a shadow over the moon
T

White Crow~White Crow~
You decayed under my kiss,
my tongue caught between your teeth,
my lips wrapped around them as though flesh were there still.
Don't forsake me,
I feel my own mortal coil coming undone,
We're just kindred spirits who hoped to survive in a godless world.
If you earned your wings today, I wonder,
could you bear the cutting, pinching,
threading, pulling, bleeding, stitching,
pain that would be involved in attaching an angel's wings?
What did you think it would be like?
I bet you thought they would just sprout,
Nothing comes from nothing, we know,
It's a small price to pay to be able to wander in paradise.
I believe in god, you didn't have to, but I do
I didn't used to until I met you,
it helped me realize there had to be something controlling fate,
in the most unpredictable way.
Time did to your skin like cracks in porcelain,
Memories left a  messy trail in the heart,
They fought back strong when oppressed,
as they felt threatened that they would be forgotten.
I let go of

The First Meeting~The First Meeting~
He was from the Midwest
so his face was pretty common
no one really noticed him
until he went out of his way to be unusual
He was the light to her darkness
he lit her cigarette in a Manhattan bar not long ago
he had to give himself a pep-talk so he could gather
enough courage to say hello
That's when it began to rain
people scrambled to catch cabs
a woman held her purse over her head
another had a man to hold her umbrella
He felt at home with the sound of the rain
as it collaborated with whatever was playing on the jukebox
her voice sang over them both
he wanted to capture that voice like a firefly
He let himself get lost in everything
it felt like they were subjects of observation
or as though they were both fantasies projected through her eyes
to test the limits of the imagination
It began as something just a tad more than casual
nothing hurt as good as they felt in each other's arms
he was the light to her darkness
the first kiss was like a shadow over the moon
T

I'll Be~I'll Be~
I'm not leaving you,
You didn't leave me when I needed you,
I'll be right here until you recover,
I can't let go of you,
We've been through so little together,
Already we've grown so close,
Both life and death are hard to cope with,
I promise you that before you leave this earth,
you will find peace,
It's so hard to breathe with this pain in my chest,
I catch myself crying,
At the stains on your shirt,
I'll be right here,
I'll love you for as long as I can,
For as long as you need me,
Did we miss something?
When we met that day?
Was it all part of your plan?
We didn't know which direction to go at the crossroads,
You were there before I was,
Yet you still don't know the way,
I held a broken person in my arms and cried,
For everything I lost,
I admit that I've never been more at home,
I knew that you loved me enough to tear down that wall,
Showed the side of you that had been hidden behind years of abuse,
I see your eyes moving rapidly beneath the lids and know that you will m

Omega~Omega
The first and the last of the ignorant will dance in the blush,
How much does it take to humiliate them?
I love to torment them,
When they said  "God help me" they didn't mean me,
We went on playing this game,
I'm tired of these fucking rules,
I'm tired of being one of these needy sheep,
If I had any integrity would I stand a chance?
I was exhausted and disappointed that I couldn't satisfy my own demons,
I am the end all,
I will sit here, comfortable in the blush,
eating ladyfingers and chocolate,
The sound of the droning singing in the church,
Will keep me entertained for a while.
Omega © J-Goth/Amanda P.

New Love~New Love~
When I look at you,
I feel so many things,
A feeling of longing inches its way into my cold heart,
I ask myself so many questions,
Do I want you or do I want to be you?
I admire you from a distance, my world is at peace,
I think of what it would be like to touch your face,
To hold you in my arms and sing to you, to watch you sleep soundly,
To kiss you,
If I told you this, I know it would seem like a childish fantasy,
Like a teenager hopelessly infatuated with a crush,
I do love you, even though we're not the same,
The voices in my head told me that you were mine,
I believed them,
They were so beautiful,
But you will never be mine,
So jaded, yet kind,
You make me remember the days when I was of sound heart and mind.
New Love © J-Goth/Amanda P.

Lesser Being~Lesser Being~
You get more beautiful every time you look at me.
Your eyes, the most beautiful eyes, are always filled with tears.
I want to be near you. My strength and character are put to the test,
every time I see you.
I feel rotten. You reach into me and pull out everything that I try to hide.
I want to play the blame game, for everything that I am. The closer I get,
the farther away it seems.
I hold you close, like a child does her doll, and I'm battling the demons inside.
I'm often confused but one thing is always certain.
The way you smile. The way your skin feels. Only a fool would ignore such
perfection.
I lose my breath when your dress falls around your ankles, or did I
dream it? In my mind, everything is the same.
Dreams are real, and everything that is real, is a dream. You can't believe that
I live like this, but if you knew, you would understand.
The way you speak to me. I have never felt so human.  I feel. One can say that I feel more than anyone else.
I kiss
Journal - 3/18

I don't want comments regarding this part of the journal, please. This is just a reminder for myself. If you want to send me a note about how you feel about it, I would rather that you did so, please and thanks. 

Today, I felt a little bit of everything. I was mad, I was scared, I was relieved, I was embarrassed, I was very depressed, I was annoyed, but then I got a little happy, and then I felt okay, and then I cried a little because something was sad, but then I laughed because it got funny. I'm not going to waste my time hurting over things that won't matter later on because I deserve to be happy and for so long I was in a dark place and I still am sometimes but I'm SO grateful when I genuinely laugh and when I made someone happy and they reciprocate it and when I feel like everything is okay. I'm SO grateful for that.

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Part 2 of Journal, You can comment on this part if you would like.

I am going to write a children's story now. I've been meaning to for a long long time, I just never got around to it. So, that's what you're all going to see in a little while. I'd like to know what you think about that, if you don't mind. I'm taking a break from my thoughts to make this so I really hope you all enjoy it. 

 
~Unsound Remains~





I taste blood where your wreckage lay,
I've marked it all over your skin,
as reminders that you're no good,
and neither am I.

Wandering through the wreck,
not knowing what I'm searching for,
it all wraps around me,
as it tries to bring itself together.

Trapped inside you,
Can't get over,
Can't go under,
Can't get through,
Why would I want to?

It hurts to say,
your voice sounds so far from in here,
I wish you were here,
Being consumed is lonely.

I want to crawl up your chest and touch your heart,
go on up to your throat and hear your voice,
get to your eyes,
and see the world through them.

I'll hold you together from inside,
despite yearning for the things that I miss,
hoping that you could live to see them,
it's all still yours to burn.





Unsound Remains © J-Goth/Amanda P.
~Dirty~







He wanted one taste
Flesh of dry wine summer fruit
Sins of a good man

Dark eyes held their gaze
Expression that made him weak
Beautiful theory

Shockingly returned
Spoiled for the lover he took
At their beck and call

Maybe he believed
It was real for the first time
Walked away again

Start over again
He wanted another taste
Promise addiction

Opened up for him
They carried the guilt for him
For another taste





Dirty © J-Goth/Amanda P.
Dirty
3/14/15

Haiku sequence for a rough week/month/year that I've been having so far. I hope you all enjoy it, and I appreciate the comments. 
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~Waning Heart~




She's my heart,
She gives me life from my chest,
To the tips of my toes and back,
To my brain where there's nothing but static,
All I ever wanted was to know what I wanted,
To make sense of my thoughts,

The night terrors plague me,
When I forget how fragile life is.
I want to be free,
Afraid to play a role in my own ruin,
I feel something biting me that I cannot shake,
A stinging, throbbing pain,

Fear,
All I ever dreamed of was to usher this heart into a future,
One worth wanting and not paying the price,
Regretting not reaching for it when it was close,
My heart is just as silly as the fantasy,
To which I retreat so as not to remember where I am,

I cannot fool me,
Brain buzzing,
Trying to find answers,
I don't know what to tell myself,
She's getting irritated because she's in pain,
I don't know how to stop it,

She will never trust me again.





Waning Heart © J-Goth/Amanda P.
Here I will post some of my best poems in one place for your convenience. I hope you all enjoy them, feel free to leave me some feedback, it would really mean a lot. Thank you for reading. 


Hollow~きょ~
So young and so used,
Don't stop, the world is watching,
They can't look away.
I am a coward,
I've seen things you won't believe,
I wish you would stay.
Try to convince you,
I made peace with who I am,
Deny who I was.
We cover our scars,
We take hits when we are bored,
They make us look good.
Not afraid to die,
Where will we be tomorrow?
Bear a sincere smile.
I taste only sin,
The night is our memory,
No fear of regret.
Smell the stench of death,
Burning in the lust of youth,
Breathing is shallow.
I glamorized suicide,
Brought stories from down under,
And I'm a hero.
~きょ~ © J-Goth/Amanda P.

Dirty~Dirty~
He wanted one taste
Flesh of dry wine summer fruit
Sins of a good man
Dark eyes held their gaze
Expression that made him weak
Beautiful theory
Shockingly returned
Spoiled for the lover he took
At their beck and call
Maybe he believed
It was real for the first time
Walked away again
Start over again
He wanted another taste
Promise addiction
Opened up for him
They carried the guilt for him
For another taste
Dirty © J-Goth/Amanda P.

The First Meeting~The First Meeting~
He was from the Midwest
so his face was pretty common
no one really noticed him
until he went out of his way to be unusual
He was the light to her darkness
he lit her cigarette in a Manhattan bar not long ago
he had to give himself a pep-talk so he could gather
enough courage to say hello
That's when it began to rain
people scrambled to catch cabs
a woman held her purse over her head
another had a man to hold her umbrella
He felt at home with the sound of the rain
as it collaborated with whatever was playing on the jukebox
her voice sang over them both
he wanted to capture that voice like a firefly
He let himself get lost in everything
it felt like they were subjects of observation
or as though they were both fantasies projected through her eyes
to test the limits of the imagination
It began as something just a tad more than casual
nothing hurt as good as they felt in each other's arms
he was the light to her darkness
the first kiss was like a shadow over the moon
T

White Crow~White Crow~
You decayed under my kiss,
my tongue caught between your teeth,
my lips wrapped around them as though flesh were there still.
Don't forsake me,
I feel my own mortal coil coming undone,
We're just kindred spirits who hoped to survive in a godless world.
If you earned your wings today, I wonder,
could you bear the cutting, pinching,
threading, pulling, bleeding, stitching,
pain that would be involved in attaching an angel's wings?
What did you think it would be like?
I bet you thought they would just sprout,
Nothing comes from nothing, we know,
It's a small price to pay to be able to wander in paradise.
I believe in god, you didn't have to, but I do
I didn't used to until I met you,
it helped me realize there had to be something controlling fate,
in the most unpredictable way.
Time did to your skin like cracks in porcelain,
Memories left a  messy trail in the heart,
They fought back strong when oppressed,
as they felt threatened that they would be forgotten.
I let go of

The First Meeting~The First Meeting~
He was from the Midwest
so his face was pretty common
no one really noticed him
until he went out of his way to be unusual
He was the light to her darkness
he lit her cigarette in a Manhattan bar not long ago
he had to give himself a pep-talk so he could gather
enough courage to say hello
That's when it began to rain
people scrambled to catch cabs
a woman held her purse over her head
another had a man to hold her umbrella
He felt at home with the sound of the rain
as it collaborated with whatever was playing on the jukebox
her voice sang over them both
he wanted to capture that voice like a firefly
He let himself get lost in everything
it felt like they were subjects of observation
or as though they were both fantasies projected through her eyes
to test the limits of the imagination
It began as something just a tad more than casual
nothing hurt as good as they felt in each other's arms
he was the light to her darkness
the first kiss was like a shadow over the moon
T

I'll Be~I'll Be~
I'm not leaving you,
You didn't leave me when I needed you,
I'll be right here until you recover,
I can't let go of you,
We've been through so little together,
Already we've grown so close,
Both life and death are hard to cope with,
I promise you that before you leave this earth,
you will find peace,
It's so hard to breathe with this pain in my chest,
I catch myself crying,
At the stains on your shirt,
I'll be right here,
I'll love you for as long as I can,
For as long as you need me,
Did we miss something?
When we met that day?
Was it all part of your plan?
We didn't know which direction to go at the crossroads,
You were there before I was,
Yet you still don't know the way,
I held a broken person in my arms and cried,
For everything I lost,
I admit that I've never been more at home,
I knew that you loved me enough to tear down that wall,
Showed the side of you that had been hidden behind years of abuse,
I see your eyes moving rapidly beneath the lids and know that you will m

Omega~Omega
The first and the last of the ignorant will dance in the blush,
How much does it take to humiliate them?
I love to torment them,
When they said  "God help me" they didn't mean me,
We went on playing this game,
I'm tired of these fucking rules,
I'm tired of being one of these needy sheep,
If I had any integrity would I stand a chance?
I was exhausted and disappointed that I couldn't satisfy my own demons,
I am the end all,
I will sit here, comfortable in the blush,
eating ladyfingers and chocolate,
The sound of the droning singing in the church,
Will keep me entertained for a while.
Omega © J-Goth/Amanda P.

New Love~New Love~
When I look at you,
I feel so many things,
A feeling of longing inches its way into my cold heart,
I ask myself so many questions,
Do I want you or do I want to be you?
I admire you from a distance, my world is at peace,
I think of what it would be like to touch your face,
To hold you in my arms and sing to you, to watch you sleep soundly,
To kiss you,
If I told you this, I know it would seem like a childish fantasy,
Like a teenager hopelessly infatuated with a crush,
I do love you, even though we're not the same,
The voices in my head told me that you were mine,
I believed them,
They were so beautiful,
But you will never be mine,
So jaded, yet kind,
You make me remember the days when I was of sound heart and mind.
New Love © J-Goth/Amanda P.

Lesser Being~Lesser Being~
You get more beautiful every time you look at me.
Your eyes, the most beautiful eyes, are always filled with tears.
I want to be near you. My strength and character are put to the test,
every time I see you.
I feel rotten. You reach into me and pull out everything that I try to hide.
I want to play the blame game, for everything that I am. The closer I get,
the farther away it seems.
I hold you close, like a child does her doll, and I'm battling the demons inside.
I'm often confused but one thing is always certain.
The way you smile. The way your skin feels. Only a fool would ignore such
perfection.
I lose my breath when your dress falls around your ankles, or did I
dream it? In my mind, everything is the same.
Dreams are real, and everything that is real, is a dream. You can't believe that
I live like this, but if you knew, you would understand.
The way you speak to me. I have never felt so human.  I feel. One can say that I feel more than anyone else.
I kiss

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ianderickson Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Just wrote a new one fav.me/d8m190a  My Bipolar mania is kicking in the past few days  lol
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ianderickson Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Just letting you know your poem dirty totally inspires me to write a very personal poem.  Love to hear what you think ianderickson.deviantart.com/ar…
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MARCO-E Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
Tag a quality deviant, You’re it!FREE flying hearts Icon  Quality doesn't mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. :love: If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! Heart Balloon Emote 
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015  Student General Artist
I love you too! :blackrose:
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MARCO-E Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
:heart: !!
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MARCO-E Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2015
Thank you...thank you so much
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JohnPatience Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014
Thanks for the fave  :)
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Student General Artist
Your work is incredible. I've never seen anything like it. You deserve many faves. Do you do commissions?
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JohnPatience Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014
Thanks very much indeed.
No I'm afraid I don't do commissions. I was a professional illustrator for about thirty years and worked to meet publishers requirements, now I'm retired and have only myself to please; I like it that way.  :)
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Student General Artist
Ah! That's understandable. I would hate to wear out something I love to do and I feel like doing it to please people is something that would put me in that direction. I always ask a new artist I find if I could buy something from them to show my support. However, I think you have more experience and talent than I could afford so you're good. I'll just go on admiring what I see here. And thank you. 
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