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Someone once gave me flack over the way that I write my poetry as far as the subject and the narrator. Mostly, I write using "I", "you", "we", "he", "she", and "us", and never really with a name and I was never really successful at dropping it and writing without inflection or the use of a person's point of view to rely on description. I feel that this is how I make the connection between myself and who ever stumbles on the poems to read them. The "we" could be you and me, or the "I" and "you" could be from the point of view of the reader directed towards someone they love, or someone they hate, or someone who hurt them. I've always felt that making this connection was important, I've always wrote with the intention of making people feel something even if it wasn't what I was feeling when I wrote it, and I've always enjoyed watching someone ask me what the poems mean or theorize about what they think they mean because it shows me that they even went a step further to try and understand it. That's one of the best feelings I've ever had.
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right now. It's called The Unlucky Ones, I started it yesterday and I'll be working on it today so that I'll have it up soon and then I'll have an even shorter horror tidbit that I mentioned in a previous journal. I'm going to try and post as much quality art as I can while I'm off. I hope you all like them, thank you so much for reading and for your comments.
I feel like there's a terrible monster inside of me because it's how people have always made me feel. I'm so afraid of what I would do if I wasn't as harmless as I am. I want to be nice, kind, and genuine, but at the same time I often imagine things I could get away with if I had the mind, looks, money, power, status, and connections. Everyone that ever hurt me, I would hurt. Everyone and everything that I wanted, I would manipulate to get. It would feel so good to be able to be completely selfish, I mean, I'm selfish now but not all the time. The worst are the times I think about doing things to people who haven't hurt me at all -- since I'm not quite willing to get therapy, I'll do what I've always done and channel it into writing. Which brings me to the point of this journal, I'm going to write a couple of shorts, one; a whimsical fantasy-type horror thing, the other; fetishism, horror, gorey, nsfw-type thing. So hopefully it gets me to feel less terrible and entertains you guys. 
~Wanting~





I want you to smell like me,
Those reminders of me all over your neck,
your back,
and your feet,
I'll bring the blood to the surface of your pale white skin,
kiss you hard enough to leave bruises nice and big,
I want to feel your heart beating,
under my tongue,
eyes like the sun shining upon the trees of a misty forest,
red lips,
vulnerable,
body eager for my assault,
misunderstood,
fresh out the cocoon,
you're gone when I open my eyes,
I don't remember being so greedy,
but I devoured what you left,
can't grow anymore,
feeling sick,
missing you.





Wanting © J-Goth/Amanda P.
Wanting
I had these words in my head buzzing around and they sounded so pretty I had to post them. Enjoy/leave feedback. 
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I've revised and titled my last poem of 2014, it's now called Without Fear. 2014 was a difficult year for a lot of reasons but I'm glad it's behind us.
~Extol~






Everything changed,
On the ascent through life you climbed upon small victories,
You were tight rope walking on a thread over all of your fears,
You didn't have to go far,
Your wrong steps had you scattered everywhere,
You pulled yourself back together every time,

Continued on your way, but in a different direction,
I didn't know how close I got, in the beginning,
You could have set yourself on fire and I would have burned,
What inhibited the ability to think was the same as what inspired the dreams,
I didn't want to lose it, but the closer I held on to it, the smaller it became,

It's a shame that I'm so fickle, embarassed for the simple things that I miss,
The little things that we long for when the other is away just to feel as though you were there,
What do we have to show for how hard we fought?
Your ephemeral body, your transient presence like vapor through my fingers,
It's all the same,
Now there is a hole,
I will not contort in pain, memory serves me well to keep you here.





Extol © J-Goth/Amanda P.
Extol
I wrote this for my friend Marco. When you see this, I really hope that it's what you wanted. It has heart and I hope that you like it.
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right now. It's called The Unlucky Ones, I started it yesterday and I'll be working on it today so that I'll have it up soon and then I'll have an even shorter horror tidbit that I mentioned in a previous journal. I'm going to try and post as much quality art as I can while I'm off. I hope you all like them, thank you so much for reading and for your comments.

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MarCoFool Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
Tag a quality deviant, You’re it!FREE flying hearts Icon  Quality doesn't mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. :love: If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! Heart Balloon Emote 
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015  Student General Artist
I love you too! :blackrose:
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MarCoFool Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2015
:heart: !!
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MarCoFool Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2015
Thank you...thank you so much
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JohnPatience Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014
Thanks for the fave  :)
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Student General Artist
Your work is incredible. I've never seen anything like it. You deserve many faves. Do you do commissions?
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JohnPatience Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014
Thanks very much indeed.
No I'm afraid I don't do commissions. I was a professional illustrator for about thirty years and worked to meet publishers requirements, now I'm retired and have only myself to please; I like it that way.  :)
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Student General Artist
Ah! That's understandable. I would hate to wear out something I love to do and I feel like doing it to please people is something that would put me in that direction. I always ask a new artist I find if I could buy something from them to show my support. However, I think you have more experience and talent than I could afford so you're good. I'll just go on admiring what I see here. And thank you. 
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MarCoFool Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014
Thanks for watching again :):hug:
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J-Goth Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Student General Artist
no problem! 
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