Do you remember that feeling?
Overwhelming confusion and calm.
The heavy breathing and your heartbeat,
so loud that it was all you could hear.
I remember chasing the first smile,
just to be sure of what I had seen.
Fresh pictures that I could dream of after a few years.
Is this the force that can capture hearts one by one?
When messing with the alien feelings,
I could not understand the meaning of the different sounds and voices.
You think you're better than that, but I do not.
You're always one word away from cracking.
Am I able to go far enough into the darkness that surrounds you?
My heart can steer my eyes but my mind knows that it's reluctant.
Rubbing my hands together, peeling dry blood.
It wouldn't be enough to wash our sins away with water.
Repentance is only the early stages of the battle,
when you're not there, I want to hide.
Pathetic, to me, is having my ear to the door.
I'm trapped in my mind now that you're gone.
The gazing shame of lust in the wake of death.
I will not let the past steal my victory from me.
I am one of the bodies going to a place we've always dreamed of,
and bury my name in ruins, alone.
I have no reason to hide.
"Perpetual Warfare" © J-Goth/Amanda P./Kanjou Li